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Life In The BlackLife around me fades to black
No longer sadness
No more pain
And in this black I am blind
Blinded by hate
Blinded by fear.
Blinded by anything.
I'm not here.
I'm somewere else
Deep in my mind.
Were no one will see me
Or even bother to find
Were i am
Lost in this black.
My rainbows erupted
Into a black pit
Leading straight to hell.
That isn't the worst
At least my brain would rest then.
No more emotional feelings.
In this black,
I feel life go by
But i can't do anything about it.
Should I care?
Do i, Already?
Who knows when i'm stuck in the black.
Strong FightStay strong for the people around you
Especialy when they need you the most.
Shove it to the ground.
It doesn't matter.
They are all that i care about.
I keep a level head
A strong mind-set.
Until i break once again.
I keep a straight tone
Definit and strong.
I sound so confident
So proud and ready.
But most days i'm clueless.
I have no words of wisdom,
No words of peace.
And most days its not enough.
But i will stay strong
For the people i love
For the friends i care about
For the future i behold.
I will try my best
And fight like a soldier
Against the many things that cause us pain.
So much more
But i'll be strong
I'll fight when i'm weary
Even if it kills me
Love Like LightningLove strikes like lightning
It comes unexcpected
Like a sudden fascination
Like you can't be disconnected
When it comes to you and me
And all the stuff we'll go through
All the things we'll see
I still know we're meant to be
You mean more to me than anything
You're my prized possession.
For you I have deep feelings for.
You're my #1 obssession
I'll allways love you deeply
You'll allways have my heart
Nothing can take you from me
Or ever tear us apart.
The WrongDon't you realize
what you do to him is wrong?
You treat him like dirt.
You have no respect for him.
He works night till day.
Do you even appreciate it?
Or do you enjoy causing him
Are you so pridefull?
Are you that wicked?
Are you that much of a heartless women?
You don't care for your husband
Like every women should.
You never pay attention to your child.
Why is that?
You sicken me at some moments.
It makes me feel bad for my brother.
Maybe if he had waited
He would've picked another.
But he's stuck with you
And all the things you put him through.
Maybe one day
You will finaly say
"i was wrong to treat you that way"
Lost Without YouThe confusion
Only come at me
When you're away
The constant hate
The wonderment of lies
It all will arise
When you wave goodbye
Im lost without
Your loving touch
I need you now
More then ever
I feel so distant
When we're not together
So hurry please
Save me now
I need your love
Your breath in my ear
To know for sure
That you are near
Im Just a TragedyIm like the book you'd never want to read
The door you'd never want to open
The light you'd never want to see
And the person in the corner who's never outspoken.
But if you got to know the real me
The me that's hiding inside
You'd see it's not what i want to be
I want to be in the right.
Im just a tragedy not yet written
The door not yet built
The light that was never wired
And the shy kid with no friends.
But one thing ill say with confidence and pride
Read this tragedy if you dare to try
Because it has its ups and downns
But remember the worst isnt written yet
There's still more to come.
Tell MeIf you read this tonight
Then i want you to know
what i made you think
So long ago.
Why do you leave me
with such little information?
My worry and care for you
Runs like a nation.
It controls my life
With its government of love.
Makes rules like a guide
Until we reach the heavens above.
Just tell me what is wrong
And i'll hold you so tight
Make you feel my love
And make everything alright.
I'll drown you in my affection
And show our deep connection
So I can have some peace
In knowing you're okay.
I love you so much
I hope you can see
That you are perfect
and the only one for me.
Whatever's clouding your mind
And running in your thoughts,
I want you to know
that i will make it better
And make you safe all day and night.
EternityYou look at me
With love in your eyes
We smile at the thought
Of an eternity
With you by my side
A rush of adrenalin
A feeling of excitement
A touch of a kiss
The pull of your arms
The love of your lips
The hearts beating
For one another.
The talks we have
With deep love
Days like this
Make me never want
to come back to reality.
As we drown in each others
The night will never end
If we try realy hard
To make it last
So it will be in our thoughts.
To keep the love going
and keep the blood flowing.
With you i never
want to leave your side
Because with you is when im happiest
With you i feel alive
With you I feel cared for.
With you my heart stays.
Forever will last
And forever will pass
But we have more then forever
We have an eternity.
The RenewalThis New feeling of
Has made me wanr to write
I feel Like a new person
Bright and spree.
You'll never see me again
Without any glee.
I live life to the fullest.
Im no longer in chains.
I want to be honest
I felt a lot of shame.
Before this renewal
I felt like a ghost.
So mistreated and ignored.
But now i boast
About the happiness i've obtained
In my heart and in my soul
In my mind i know
That because of him
I'll be okay.
I AmI am single,
but I am loved.
I am not a genius,
but I am intelligent.
I am not breathtaking,
but I have beauty.
I am not a saint,
but I am kind.
To the world,
I am not perfect.
But for someone,
Two Years LaterShe asked him gently, “Do you love me?”
In his long silence, she found closure,
And left her love under a willow tree.
lung canceri will die with your name on my lips
because there is nothing else i'll need to say.
you are my coffin, my funeral pyre.
as my bones disintegrate, popping and snapping,
you will greedily swallow my ashes
until nothing is left of me but secondhand smoke.
i've danced with you, love, across hospital tile,
the scent of antiseptic cloying as valentine's chocolate.
you dipped me into unconsciousness,
and i willingly closed my eyes.
the intrusion of your scalpel teeth no longer scares me.
you, my rigor mortis soul mate, always take me under.
your tent of frostbitten shelter pulls me down, an anchor,
while i gag on pills too abstract to save me.
forgive me, lungs, of my cigarette abuse,
but i've found happiness in a reaper's cloak.
i find comfort in these carcinogens.
i've made my nest in a swaying tree,
my body destroyed by the nauseous rocking.
they smile at me with pity in their eyes,
scribbling nonsense on those jaw-like clipboards.
their crisp, stark white world still has faith in me,
All Her Little ThingsStop hating her for the littlest things.
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from..
Stop demanding her to do things,
Things she can't accomplish,
Things she can't imagine being done...
Stop lying to her,
Telling her you love her,
Want her, need her...
When all you've ever done is make her want to
Stop hating her for the littlest things.
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from...
When those little things you've done
Take her down...
The little things won't matter anymore.
you've been dead for a year, my deari met you on december 21st,
the longest night of the year.
you had solstice eyes: cold, dark, alluring.
i knew you were not meant to last,
powerful as a gale but fragile as
the tulip stems you snapped,
a sickening cycle of you,
an overwhelming tidal wave.
they say two wrongs will never make a right,
but i made so many bad choices that
i wound up back where I began.
it was too easy to love you,
but getting you to love me back was impossible.
i clawed at your chest until I struck blood,
until my nails split into shards.
you were born a phantom,
and i, your corpse.
holding onto you felt like drowning in quicksand;
i fought but always sank into your arms.
i breathed in dirt, breathed in dust, and
found my organs choked with you,
smothered by your existence.
you sucked out my breath
every time i kissed you.
i died every day with your hand
knotted in my hair.
You left on june 21st,
the longest day of the year.
i bit down sorrow and deconstructed
the labyrinth within me,
the one you hadn't th
Eye of the StormI believed I could make the wind blow,
and force the moon to shine at night,
create rainbows just by thinking,
and hold tea parties for fairies in July,
I was the queen of my own graceful lands.
Yet, I grew old and realized,
I am the kind of girl who'd trip and fall,
often for stepping on her own feet.
My crown of diamond and gold
now a rusted piece of bronze,
I lost my throne to treason, my kingdom to hate,
I became the eye of a hurricane,
loaded with mishaps I need to atone.
I felt the soft touches of angels,
and lost my own wings to demons who could crush stone.
Felt the scorching tears run so often,
I knew I must have hit bottom low.
I had nothing holy, no one to call dear,
but here I am, the starting point of my own storm.
I felt fear, clung to shadows,
encased my heart within marble walls,
and threw the keys that can unlock my soul.
So many chances I've lost with no love to seek,
and so many people I turned my back to.
I let the darkness gnaw through my bones.
Mirror, MirrorMirror, mirror, on the wall,
Watch it crumble, break and fall.
Look at all the bloody glass,
How it reminds them of a severed past.
Watch a reflection slowly disappear,
Looking at all the shattered, crushed mirrors.
A breathless state of mind goes by,
Am I just alive or did I die?
Confused and in an awe,
Careless people unknown to what one saw.
Throat slit so one can't be unlocked,
Too bad the thoughts have become blocked.
Crimson splatters, dripping, breaking away,
Thou shall not know the feeling of all the pain.
Oh, Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Why did you crumble, break and fall?
A stranger walked up to me today...A man walked up to me and asked me for a cigarette… I told him I didn't smoke anymore, and he asked me why? ––I answered "because the person I used to smoke with, isn't around anymore", and he replied…"that's why I smoke."
A woman walked up to me and asked me for drugs, I replied "I have several in store…his eyes, his smile, his hands"…she whispered, "that's not a drug"…and I laughed as I said.. "if only you knew."
A child walked up to me today and asked me to play a game, I told them I was too tired to play games, i'd been playing for years, they replied…"then you must be a pro!", to which I said "yes…a pro at losing."
An old woman stared at me today, and I asked her…"is something wrong?" she answered "I was about to ask you the same question."
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Why Do I FeelWhy do i feel so gloom and shallow?
My insides turn cold,dark,and hallow.
The pain of the past lingers inside.
And the after-effects are harder to hide.
Why do i feel so sick and afraid?
All the comments i never made.
The feeling of fear runs my mind.
All the words i could never find.
Why do i feel so utterly despised?
Hated by many lives.
Treated like a piece of dirt.
Stomped on like it doesn't hurt.
Why do i feel anything at all?
Stuck The car sputtered and shook as it came to an almost silent stop. The engine had gone silent as the horn beeped loudly through the dark night. The orange gas light blinked mockingly at the woman behind the wheel. It was making fun of her; she knew it was making fun of her. Grabbing the black cellular phone on the passenger seat, she looked at it with full intention of calling somebody to come help her.
“Oh, what the hell?!”
The “no service” sign was mocking her at the same exact time. The horn beeped loudly as she slammed her head against it once again. The day was out to get her in general. She had arrived at all her classes late, and her son was sick with the flu. The babysitter was able to watch him as she went to her late night classes. Giving a heavy sigh, she lifted her head off the wheel to look out the window. Drops of water pooled on the windshield as rain started to fall in a pitter-patter pattern. She didn’t quite understand the message th
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